Thursday, August 05, 2010
was reading a book which was famous almost a decade ago :p
okay, maybe not a decade ago. happened to realised that keith had the book while he was reading it and borrowed it after he was done with it.
Driven by Eternity
by John Bevere :)
not even half way through the book yet though.
but i guess reading about "faint heart" and her judgement, it caught my attention.
for years i've been reading
[Heb12:1-3]always quoting about how our life is a marathon and not a sprint, and how we have to press on, keep on keeping on in whatever we do, through challenges and situations. i mean, yes they are all true.
"...let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
but i realised that i've always been missing out on (in my opinion) the real reason why we should KOKO, why we should never give up and endure through it all.
just a couple of chapters before that....
[Heb10:36-38]the simple truth that God doesnt take pleasure in those who do not endure.
"36 For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise:
37 “ For yet a little while,
And He who is coming will come and will not tarry.
38 Now the just shall live by faith;
But if anyone draws back,
My soul has no pleasure in him.” "
i mean it's not that i'm (i cant find a word for it) and i know the purpose of my being a Christian is not so that i dun have to go to hell and can secure a place for myself in Heaven and let my name not be erased in the Book of Life.
but its the fact that i can actually lose my salvation even if i profess myself to be a Christian but
1. don't live the lifestyle of a Christian
2. let circumstance fall down on me, and because of circumstance, i believe but yet i dun believe?
it's kinda hard to explain especially when i'm not so good at doing analyses and what not. but it scares me that i can say i'm a Christian, but yet, if i dont endure through the sufferings and situations we face even as human beings, i'll spend my entire life for nought.
should i because of the things people say, therefore juz throw in the towel?
should i because of the things people do, therefore say that's it?
should i because of the situations imposed on me, therefore say i'm through with witnessing God's love, therefore can harbour hardness and bitterness?
i've come to reflect about the events that have passed during my 6years of being a Christian. and i really thank God for placing people in my life that never fails to pull me back to my feet to keep me fighting this fight of faith. during that major setback from long ago, i'm still amazed at how kenneth managed to get me from being derailed to being back on track. [thank you kenneth! :)] and i really thank God despite the times that i felt like throwing in the towel and doubt my ability, i somehow conjurred out the ability to not do so. i guess there are times when you should still be wise and know when to let go, that which i've learnt the start of this year, that sometimes it's not throwing in the towel, it's moving forward in progress rather than staying put and being stagnant.
i suddenly feel sad for the people that run the race but fall away after a while without completing the race ):
gentle reminder to self and everyone out there:
ENDURE!
:)
*throbs @08:02 <3
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